Interesting.

“Letting a writer into your life is like letting a jackal into the living room, then asking whether it plans on ripping open one particular sofa cushion. Maybe, and maybe not, but a mess is going to be made no matter what. This should theoretically be a big negative on the list of reasons to date someone: the possibility that all of your intimate exchanges are being silently cataloged and will later reappear in a context beyond your control, where the unreliable interpretation will transform into historical fact.”
— Michael Thomsen

True but at the same time, to be with someone who can articulate their emotions with the perfect wording is amazing. And once it's over you can see how you've affected this writers life, by how he or she speaks of it. I guess it pretty much depends on the person. But how someone speaks of you on paper says enough.. They don't even have to say your name and you'll know if its you.

Epictetus

How long are you going to wait before you demand the best for yourself and in no instance bypass the discriminations of reason?

You have been given the principles that you ought to endorse, and you have endorsed them.

What kind of teacher, then, are you still waiting for in order to refer your self-improvement to him?

You are no longer a boy, but a full-grown man. If you are careless and lazy now and keep putting things off and always deferring the day after which you will attend to yourself, you will not notice that you are making no progress, but you will live and die as someone quite ordinary.

From now on, then, resolve to live as a grown-up who is making progress, and make whatever you think best a law that you never set aside.

And whenever you encounter anything that is difficult or pleasurable, or highly or lowly regarded, remember that the contest is now: you are at the Olympic Games, you cannot wait any longer, and that your progress is wrecked or preserved by a single day and a single event.

That is how Socrates fulfilled himself by attending to nothing except reason in everything he encounte(red). And you, although you are not yet a Socrates, should live as someone who at least wants to be a Socrates.

Practice then from the start to say to every harsh impression,

"You are an impression, and not at all the thing you appear to be."

Then examine it and test it by these rules you have, and firstly, and chiefly, by this: whether the impression has to do with the things that are up to us, or those that are not; and if it has to do with the things that are not up to us, be ready to reply,
"It is nothing to me."

We will not be troubled at any loss, but will say to ourselves on such an occasion:
"I have lost nothing that belongs to me; it was not something of mine that was torn from me, but something that was not in my power has left me."

Nothing beyond the use of our opinion is properly ours. Every possession rests on opinion. What is to cry and to weep? An opinion. What is misfortune, or a quarrel, or a complaint? All these things are opinions; opinions founded on the delusion that what is not subject to our own choice can be either good or evil, which it cannot.

By rejecting these opinions, and seeking good and evil in the power of choice alone, we may confidently achieve peace of mind in every condition of life.

Circumstances don't make the man, they only reveal him to himself.


Wise words from an OG.

Knowing.

You think you know, but you have no idea.
Word to MTV Diary. (They should bring that back, cool show.)

We as humans like to believe whatever we feel we know is in fact accurate. But that's not always the case. From finding out Santa's fake to the imaginary toothfairy, Easter bunny etc.. Our sense of truth has been alte(red) several times as kids. What we thought we knew, was just a carefully placed mirage.. But it didn't stop there. There's plenty of things as you got older you thought you knew and come to find out, it's pure bullshit. It's like a never ending cycle.

So what do we really know?

We only know what we get told, but we can't always go by what we're told. And what about what's not told to us, if that's in fact the truth.. Why aren't we exposed to it? Why are we forced to dig, search and pry the truth from the tight grip of those who try to conceal it? Why do others feel they have this authority over what truths should you be exposed to and which ones should be kept hidden? Who the fuck died and made you responsible for what I'm allowed to believe, hear, see, "know"? I just want to know.

We really don't know shit.
Even when you think you know, you don't. And if you do.. A simple turn of events can alter that with the quickness.

You can swear up and down there's a pizza shop on the corner, you know this. It's been there your entire life.. And you get to the corner, the pizza shop is gone. A barbershop is now in place of that pizza shop you were about to bet on your life was still existent. Now you have no idea what happened to the pizza shop or when did it close down. You don't know. Just 5 minutes ago... You were so sure.

Life is truly like that.
Unless you live in a bubble, your entire life is spent figuring out false truths and stumbling upon the real deal. So many different variations of truth and perception, what makes it true? Did you see this with your own eyes? Are you certain your eyes weren't playing tricks on you? Sure you weren't delusional? Did you hear this correctly? How valid are your sources? .. And even still.. You don't really know, even if you feel you know.

People.
You either know someone, or know of them.. You know what they tell you .. And what's said of them by others around them. You know what you see of this person when you're with them, but don't know of what they do when you're not around.. you don't know everything.

Nobody knows everything.
Nobody knows nobody.

That, we know for certain.
We know what we don't know.. What we know is still iffy. Some may say.. Fuck you, I know what I'm talking about, I know this and that. Blah.. Blah.. Blah.
We only know moments. And math.

I hate math. Hate it with the intensity of a thousand suns. Unless its a $ in front. I don't care for math. But in life, our math equations aren't always numbers, but life variables. And that's how we conclude what we know. What adds up and what doesn't. If you do life math on a problem and the solution isn't adding up to what you're told, you're missing a variable.. Meaning something you don't know. Something you're not being told. And when it does add up right, you know.

Because knowing is double checking everything. Knowing is learning. Knowing is a feeling. And KNOWING that can change. What you used to know, isn't as valuable as what you know today. But you wouldn't be here today if it weren't for what you learned yesterday. Through trials and tribulations you make your own truth, your own sense of knowledge.. That you build throughout time. And finally rid yourself of those tainted truth smoothies forced down your throat by those around you. They used to taste good, but that bitter aftertaste always told you something aint right. Those wanting to control you by altering your sense of judgment and logic with their versions of truth and knowledge.

Intuition. That's knowing at its rawest. To feel one way and everything/one else trying to sway you another way only proves we know what's best for us. That gut feeling isn't to be igno(red) and when it is. We suffer greatly.. We feel betrayed by following outsiders words when in reality.. We betrayed ourselves, we knew. Deep down inside we knew. And we igno(red) it. Instead of listening to our intuitive feeling we chose to listen to others and their lullaby lies... Putting us to sleep. From the truth.

In a world where technology is so advanced and everything/one isn't what it seems, mirages everywhere.. Lies travel faster than the speed of light.. How can we know, what we know is even real? I guess this where trust comes into play. But trusting comes from being intuitive.. Feeling like you can trust a person or a situation to be what they appear, no hidden agenda or motives. Trusting that the knowledge you have now will only expand and grow as you feed and nurture what you know, who you know.

The day we stop learning, is the day we stop knowing.

Variant: When it is not in our power to follow what is true, we ought to follow what is most probable. —Descartes

Real knowledge is to know the extent of one's ignorance. —Confucius

It is impossible to begin to learn that which one thinks one already knows. —Epictetus

One thing only I know, and that is that I know nothing. —Socrates

The oath.

The Entrepreneur's oath.

As an entrepreneur, I will aspire to inspire those who want to pursue an alternative path from the traditional. I will work to innovate and transform the impossible to possible. My reality is void from the confines of constricted thoughts and has no limits nor boundaries. I shape the future and create opportunities that can not be produced from the unimaginable mindset.

Law 29; Plan all the way to the end.

Most people believe that they are in fact aware of the future, that they are planning and thinking ahead. They are usually deluded: what they are really doing is succumbing to their desires, to what they want the future to be. Their plans are vague, based on their imagination rather than their reality. They may think they are thinking all the way to the end, but they are really only focusing on the happy ending, and deluding themselves by the strength of their desire.


Unhappy endings are much more common than happy ones - do not be swayed by the happy ending in your mind.

With that being said;
keep planning.. Keep working.

Law 25: Re-Create Yourself.

I understood that I was inventing myself and that I was doing this more in the way of a painter than in the way of a scientist. I could not count on precision or calculation; I could only count on intuition. I did not have anything exactly in mind, but when the picture was complete I would know. — Jamaica Kincaid

Nobody built like you, you designed yourself. — Jay-Z

interesting...

You are a fortunate person, indeed, if you can begin each day accepting the fact that during that day there will be ups and downs, good breaks and bad ones, disappointments, surprises, unexpected turns of events. - Roy Benjamin

They'll ask me how I did it and who I did it for ..

The only way you can write the truth is to assume that what you set down will never be read. Not by any other person, and not even by yourself at some later date. Otherwise you begin excusing yourself. You must see the writing as emerging like a long scroll of ink from the index finger of your left hand; you must see your right hand erasing it —Margaret Atwood

Happy triggers.

I just wanted to take the time out and list some of the things that make me happy. :)

• Full battery on cellphone/iPod
• Finding money
• Listening to my favorite songs
• Smiling
• Food
• Shoppin (of course)
• Finding the last item in your size
• when I have a good day
• when cute guys randomly text me
• Craving something and instantly getting it
• Watching movies.
• Hanging out w| my friends
• Jokes
• When my hair is done
• Fresh laundry
• When I get good grades after I worked hard.
• Speaking my mind.

*I could go on but I rather not. lol

Daily Quote: 

A multitude of small delights constitutes happiness. - Charles Baudelaire

Rise and Shine.

I've been up for about an hour now, which I think is progress .. due to the fact I usually would be going to sleep around this time. I took nyquil pills to help me plus I'm getting sick (or was, I think the pills did miracles) I had a nightmare that Zombies were out to get me and I was all alone, real I am Legend shit, I don't like dreams like that. At all. I'm watching a movie called The Right Temptation, pretty good actually. I kinda wished I was asleep for more than 6 hours but I feel rested so I won't complain. Anyway I did my laundry yesterday so I feel like I accomplished something (I love the smell of clean clothes) and since I've given up hope on finding a temp. job for the winter break, I'm going to do other things to preoccupy my time. Like work on my fitness, take an online winter mini and try to be more healthy. I love food but I don't wanna be all grease on the inside, plus alot of healthy food are tasting better than ever. I feel I'm growing rapidly as a person, on the inside anyway, but I want the change to show on the outside too. I must admit I do feel good about this, and as the new year approaches, I pray I don't get discouraged. for an Optimistic I can be pretty pessimistic. "Baby steps" is what I tell myself .. Patience is definitely key. (side note; this movie is toooo good .. ugh the suspense. If you happen to catch it on cable pr netflix, watch it)  well good morning to everyone and I hope you make the best out this day, I know I will. 

Daily Quote:
We must become the change we want to see. - Mahatma Gandhi 

Lord knows

"Too many guys think I’m a concept, or I complete them, or I’m gonna make them alive. But I’m just a fucked-up girl who’s lookin’ for my own peace of mind; don’t assign me yours."  - Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind


Lord knows that shit is soo true .. like i honestly don't understand why Guys try to G' me so hard ? like yeah, i can admit i feel i am an attractive young lady but some guys fake act like i was put here on earth for them .. and i guess that's supposed to be flattering but alot of times it isn't. or maybe its just i swear every guy is trying to run game and try to score in home court. who knows [ kanye shrug ]

Truth is . . .

You know what I think hurts the most? The feeling of being replaced. It’s like no matter what you did, it wasn’t enough. And no matter what you do to try and capture their heart again, doesn’t seem to work. And you’re suddenly left thinking that you’ll never be enough. And a sudden sadness captures your heart that never really leaves.
— JoAnne Golden

seriously.

Oh shut up. Every time it rains, it stops raining. Every time you hurt, you heal. After darkness, there is always light and you get reminded of this every morning but still you choose to believe that the night will last forever. Nothing lasts forever. Not the good or the bad. So you might as well smile while you're here.
( via i wrote this for you. )

Factory Girl

Andy Warhol: I wonder if people are going to remember us?
Edie Sedgwick: What, when we're dead?
Andy Warhol: Yeah.
Edie Sedgwick: Well I think people will talk about how you changed the world.
Andy Warhol: I wonder what they'll say about you... in your obituary. I like that word.
Edie Sedgwick: Nothing nice, I don't think.
Andy Warhol: No no, come on. They'd say, "Edith Minturn Sedgwick: beautiful artist and actress...
Edie Sedgwick: ...and all around loon.
Andy Warhol: ...Remembered for setting the world on fire...
Edie Sedgwick: ...and escaping the clutches of her terrifying family...
Andy Warhol: ...Made friends with eeeeverybody, and anybody...
Edie Sedgwick: ...creating chaos and uproar wherever she went. Divorced as many times as she married, she leaves only good wishes behind.
[laughs]
Edie Sedgwick: That's nice, isn't it?

i really love this movie. =)

quote.

"when I am ridiculously rich, 

even my trash will be taken out in a designer bag. 

And now that I have graduated with some sort of degree, 

I am one step closer to being filthy rich."

<3

"He gave me that night back and this time,
i told you the truth.
we talked and held each other till the sun came up.
And as i went to hell,
the devil asked me if it was worth it.
i said yes.
yes it was."

-_-

I'll pretend that you mean the weather when you ask me how things are. I'll say cold and dry.( via i wrote this for you )

aint that the truth.

"If someone betrays you once, it’s their fault;
if they betray you twice, it’s your fault."
-Eleanor Roosevelt

light

"The brighter you are, the more you have to learn."

Don Herold