Ah Sundays

I absolutely love Sundays. the whole relaxation thing is me. A day to just relax and prepare for the week ahead. It's early still, so I'ma gonna go do some homework and hit the gym. I like my schedule, I'm taking some interesting classes. I'm trying to stay focused and start a routine where I make sure everything that needs to be done, gets done. I have faith and motivation, that should be enough for now.

howdyy

I'm back at school for a few days. Today was my second day of class and it's going pretty well .. I'm still adjusting and transiting to a time frame where I sleep all night and stay up all day. I need to get a balance of time.








"Patience is key"

Grind time.

Tomorrow I will be going back to school .. I must say, this vacation went by soo fast. But i'm not stressing it. I gotta go back and get this semester started w| .. finally.

laptop blues ..

before i left school someone dropped my laptop (that person is still unknown) and the screen is bleeding in the right hand corner. sometimes the screen shakes making it very hard to use. andd to top it off some buttons are gone. -_____- and i have online classes so it makes it veryy hard.
i'm buying a new one soon. i realllyyy want a macbook. but i might have to settle for something a lil more in my price range. i have alot i need to get. so yeah i'm pissed. but i'll be okay .. lol

i love college ?

umm ... i'm not too suree but in the am i'm meeting w| my adviser and we're creating my classes for the spring semester. i'm really gonna spend a few hours in there; i'm really considering a winter mini as well. i really wanna get out in 4 semesters.


i'll let you guys [ for those who care ] know how it all goes tomorrow.


gonna watch Family Guy til i fall asleep.



night. =)

hallowee-kend

my main bitch Ro Ro came to visit me .. along w| Andyy and Charles.
i can say we had fun .. =)

we went to the school party on saturday.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

hmm

i gotten into a lil habit .. and im making the changes i want too.
just need a lil more of a push ..

i lost another follower; [ kanye shrug ] fuck it.

i need to work on posting more ..


not feeling too good .. its mother nature fucking w| me. -_-
fucking bitch.


so im just gonna go make dinner and be a pill popping animal ..

=)

i basically live on a mountain and when it rains, well .. peep the outcome.

saturday

i'm learning so much in school and out.


i really need to sit here and write .. but not today .. lol

say what ?

so i'm here enjoying my ham&cheese hotpocket .. 

mmm .. delicious.

i finished my first class.. next class is Fitness @ 11. 

i wish i had a car, so i can drive home when i want to.

it's so weird not having to tell my mom where i'm at. or calling to see if she cooked, or telling my now EX-boyfriend to come over and spend some QT, or waiting for Sammy to come get me so we can go to "the hood" .. there's so many things i miss about home, but i am really enjoying my time here, it's real interesting to see how us young adults can suffice w|o adults for the most part. on campus, we RARELY see adults, no we NEVER see adults unless it's  campus security. i feel boxed in sometimes, like if i'm stuck here isolated from the "real world" .. but in reality, it gets no realer then this, i have to go to wal-mart and do my own groceries, wash my own clothes, cook my own meals. i don't pay rent to live here, [ Financial Aid does lol ]. now i have a better understanding of how life is, and i appreciate my mother so much more now, cause doing everything on your own gets annoying .. sheesh. lol even though i only been here for three weeks, it feels like forever .. and the view is something serious [ i'm up on mountains ] the clouds seem at an arm's reach, the fog so thick you can't see next door. my roommates and adopted roomie [ lol ] get along well for the most part .. hopefully it stays that way .. but let me go start getting ready for this tough workout i'm about to endure [ my motivation is this outfit i wanna wear when my tummy gets flat lol ] 


peace&lust. =)

my apt.

i haven't been updating lately .. i been busy ..

here's my apartment though ..

school spirit

trying get into the spirit ..

this time next week.

i'll be at Herkimer college,

i should be more excited ..

but in all reality, i'm sca(red) and nervous, only because this is a really big step and a complete change of scenery.i'm a citygirl at heart, always have been, always will. so for me to just go out and head to the suburbs is a little irrational for me. but it's a decision i thought long and hard about. put alot of time, and hopefully, me being on campus benefits me in the best way possible.

i've always shyed away from trying things that i were never too sure about. i hate not knowing how things are going to turn out for me, but truthfully, that's what life is about; learning and experiencing new things and change. i do know change is inevitable, but i try to atleast have some type of control on how i change, and when i'm not in control of whatever situation i come across, i panic. i hyperventalite, and feel helpless. i find this to be weird. but nonetheless, i felt by going away, i could figure out alot about myself, and come out a better person throughout it all. but isn't that how we're supposed to come out being through ANY experience ? .. a better person overall. i try to embrace more opportunities that are thrown my way and hopefully face my fear of things i can't change.

Life is "trying things to see if they work." - Ray Bradbury.

i just felt the need to get that off my chest. whew, feel a whole lot better.

'til next time.

breathing.

this poem i wrote back when school was in session for my 2nd period Poetry class.

inhaling,
exhaling,
and hoping ..
he can continue
grass green, sky blue;
all this, he knew.
takin' things for granted,
his life gone ?
he couldn't fathom.
and all the material things ?
he had 'em.
and all the girls ?
yep, he bagged 'em.
we thought he had it all,
'til we all seen him fall.
he was always on a roll,
never heard stop;
Freeway, tryna take it to the top.
his fall was something vicious,
no one ever envisioned ..
the "fly cocky dude"
finally lost his cool.
and while everyone was leavin' ..
his only thought was ...
how could he stop breathing.