All I want for Christmas ...

As the holidays approach, I can't shake holiday spirit. Thanksgiving is next week and I can't wait. All the good food, drinks and bud to be consumed. After thanksgiving, comes Christmas, I know what I'm getting my siblings, my mom and grandma .. hopefully I can get that out the way quick, After all the events that have happened this year, I'm definitely treating myself to a few gifts. If I don't, who will?

iPad Mini

I love the iPad concept and now even more that it's a tad bit smaller. Perfect fit in all my bags. Of course I want it in black to match my phone. 

Xbox 360 Star Wars edition 

Now, I'm no Star Wars fan .. besides those Family Guy episodes, I never saw a Star Wars movie. Me purchasing my own Xbox is way overdue, so this is a must. Several games I've been wanting to play and I just love the design .. But do you see the controller????\

No seriously, Do you see this shit? this is the MAIN reason I want this. 

Rose Gold Movado Women's Watch

 I love Rose Gold and I need some arm candy.

Celine Winter '12 Trapeze Canvas Bag*

This is a little outta my budget, but I would loveeee this bag in either color. this is more of a wishlist item but eh, fuck it. Who knows, maybe my wish will come true. :) 

Thoughts before bed.

I had a pretty good day, decent weekend overall.
Now as I just get comfortable in my bed, soon the sun peek through ..
I'm watching Family Matters, only because the batteries in my remote control finally died.

Any who, after the interesting day I had..
I realized, people are who they are and unless they have a true sense of self, no matter what you tell them about themselves whether it's true or not; they won't see it. I'm learning how to leave people as they are .. No matter how much I want to see people better themselves all around, I can't force that. That's something people have to want for themselves. I have no control over that. And it saddens me, when people are trapped in a certain mindset that's holding them back from becoming a better person.

I could give my perspective on a view but because of how I'm viewed my perspective isn't taken as serious, that's top 5 most annoying things. A friend of mine told me literally 20 minutes ago "you give good advice and make valid points but you don't live that life, you don't care about anything" because I'm not as vocal with my concerns, because I don't like to complain, because I TRULY believe anything endu(red) will pass, people assume I'm careless. If not everything, majority of the words I speak, I live by. And anything otherwise is usually introduced with an "I heard" .. I like to practice what I preach, I hate people who are full of shit so I never wanted to be anything close to a resemblance to that. I never claim to be perfect and of course I get upset, but I pride myself in letting shit go and moving on. Life doesn't stop here and neither will I. I refuse to let things bother me for long periods of time, life is literally too short for that. People really tend to forget that. We're not here forever, no one is .. So I'm going to make my time here enjoyable. ( earl nightingale voice ) I honestly can't remember the last time I had an entire bad day. And I hope that memory stays distant.

I've been up all day you'd think I'd be ti(red) ... But I'm not. Kinda. I have to work tomorrow too. :/ let me get some sleep.



"Blessed are they who see beautiful things in humble places where other people see nothing." — Camille Pissarro

High, are you?

I'm just laying here and mentally plotting out the next couple months since things have been going smoothly.

Not as fast as I would like it.

But, progress no matter the speed is still progress indeed. I keep getting all the signs, I really have to go after my dreams ( as many as I can make come true ) and I know I create my future as long as I can control my thoughts. Decluttering myself from negativity wasn't as hard as I thought. If you ignore negativity, it tends to go away. Misery love company and if you're a terrible host they'll find a new one. I never been one to host misery so comfortably so that works.

I gave myself a personal deadline. I won't reveal what is supposed to be done by this deadline but just know that's all I'm thinking of. And since you become what you think about, I'll be where I wanna be in no time right?
.. I hope so. Nah, I know so.
It's only a matter of time. This patience shit is tricky but I'm getting the hang of it. I like to remind myself of what I'm waiting for and that the wait is worth it. I just gotta keep myself busy so it doesn't seem so long once the day gets here.

My social life could use a pick me up. I don't really engage in social scenes, not that I don't like to. I just haven't found the time lately. I've been on my hermit shit. But that should change. The holidays coming up. I'm tryna have fun. As the year comes to an end at a weirdly fast pace .. I'm just happy to be alive. Really. I just want to enjoy my life any way I can for as long as I can. And find ways to enjoy it even more. Pursue all my interests and discover new ones. Meet interesting, fun, positive people who are on their own life journey for eternal peace. (Thats all anyone wants anyway, peace of mind right?) I don't ask for much .. I don't rely on anyone to ensure this happiness for me either, I'm fully capable of pleasing myself like I masturbate. Lol, I know what I want, so no one else will take the credit or blame for my actions. Okay now I'm rambling. Ima finish watching Martin and hope I fall asleep before this high fades. Goodnight you.


"A happy person is not a person in a certain set of circumstances, but rather a person with a certain set of attitudes." — Hugh Downs

Thursday.

I love Thursdays. Idk what it is about it, maybe the Pre-weekend vibes start kicking in, idk. But Thursday always proves to be productive, whether I'm getting a check or just doing some cool shit. I love Thursdays. And even more when the Weeknd dropped that Thursday track which just gave the actual day an anthem. I see I'm not the only one who loves Thursdays lol yesterday it started snowing, idk if its snowing right now because I have yet to look out the window .. I'm not too fond of snow but whatever. First a hurricane, now a snow storm? Yikes. But today is Thursday. And like every day, today will be filled with positive thoughts (THINK GOOD THOUGHTS) and activity that leads to prosperity and joy. That's all that matters anyway.


"The only thing to do with good advice is to pass it on. It is never of any use to oneself." — Oscar Wilde


Oh and a big congratulations to Mr. Obama out savior for another 4 years.
Ball out my nigga.

Nov. 2012

One month and some change left til 2013 .. I'm in a better place mentally. Thank god. Alot of things are falling together quite nicely .. I have stuff I have to attend to.. But overall I'm okay. I honestly mean I'm okay. I'm more than grateful for alot and especially after Hurricane Sandy, more things have gotten clearer in perspective. I just have to remain focused and keep my eye on the target. Smoking weed in the waiting room, since I'll be here for a while .. The wait is definitely worth it. Ooh thanksgiving coming up, can't wait for all the food and herbs I will intake. Lol I do have alot to be thankful for, but that's everyday.