laptop blues ..

before i left school someone dropped my laptop (that person is still unknown) and the screen is bleeding in the right hand corner. sometimes the screen shakes making it very hard to use. andd to top it off some buttons are gone. -_____- and i have online classes so it makes it veryy hard.
i'm buying a new one soon. i realllyyy want a macbook. but i might have to settle for something a lil more in my price range. i have alot i need to get. so yeah i'm pissed. but i'll be okay .. lol

eh ... : \

hmm .. idk any more .. honestly, it seems all my logic seems to be getting poked holes at. it's like i'm running on a treadmill no matter how hard i run, i stay in the same place. -_-



oh yeah happy father's day to all the true fathers out there ant the mother who play daddies ..

2:55am

and i'm on the phone w| him ..
playing musical trivia.
lmfao it's corny i know.
but i can't stop smiling cause it's cute.
aww <3

help ? .. never mind.

well i've been home for about a month now. still no job -_- it's kinda frustrating because there's alot of things i want and need .. and i'm not trying to depend on my mother forever (not like she'll let me) but anyways, i'm sitting here thinking bout my life .. (my birthday was on Thursday) and it's weird. when i was a little kid i swore by 19 i'll have my own apartment a car and just having the time of my lifee .. now let me check .. own apartment ? nope. own car ? not yet. having the time of my life ? not today. so that makes me think well if nothing comes out as planned, or as i thought. imagine 10 years from now ? where will i be ? will i be a socialite therapist w| a killer body a closet to die for and everything else i wanna be ? or will i be just another woulda coulda .. i feel i need to change how i orbit. i tend to be a slacker, i'm smart i know what i'm capable of .. i just tend to be extra lazy .. and that's not gonna get me anywhere. so *shrugs* change is good no ? well i'm starting to do little things to change my habit .. baby steps .. baby steps. lol

hey there

`god it's been awhile .. it's been crazy .. so much has happened. but i'm back. i plannn on really seriously updating more often .. just thoughts and shit. i re-read everything i've written on here and i surprise myself sometimes. i'm really fake smart.


well i'll have a topic for later on today : )